David,
I remember you posting this in the “Where does your username come from” thread. Read your own words & think about being the guitar player you dream of becoming.
Often, when life kicks us in the gut, some of the things we want or need to do are put on hold for a while - we need time to recover. That’s ok. It’s important to remember our Dreams & our Goals though. They may not seem so important while the pain is fresh, but they’re actually a very important part of recovering and healing from the crummy hand that has been dealt to you.
As I said above, it’s good to look back and remember the times you’ve had with your Dad, but at the same time, think about what your Dad would have said to you if he were still here. Not knowing him of course I’ll just give you the advice I’d give my son in similar circumstances… “Son, stop crying in your beer, get up off of your bum & go do something you love! While your doing it, just give a little thought to how much I love you & how proud I am that you’re having yourself some fun & not just moping around!” (I’d probably use some “saltier” words, though)
My 2 cents… given in the spirit of someone who has experienced similar pain…
Tod