Welcome Linda 
I’m glad you’ve come out of hiding to join us here in this shiny new house.
Starting a Learning Log can be a good way of setting goals and noting achievements. It’s a good way of drawing a line in the sand. Learning Logs
There’s a special AVOYP section made just for you Beginner’s Safe Space
One other thing that may give you the nudge you need when this happens …
… ask yourself “If this were my last day on earth, would I play?”
What I’m saying is, live without regret, reach (literally) for your dreams every day.