Hey hey its my one year anniversary with Justin’s course coming up here in about a week. I feel accomplished that I’ve stayed dedicated this long. I’ve developed good calluses and been able to consistently find at least 30 minutes of practice at least 5 days a week. There’s a ton of stuff that I now know about playing guitar that I never knew before. I love that, and still have tons of passion for learning more. I am dying to get good, and can’t wait to see what else Justin has in store for me in the beginner course.
Problem is, I’m also feeling many things that are making me hesitate progressing through the course and I’m feeling myself stagnating. I’m pretty much in a rut.
I am working on modules 13 and 14 in Gr 2. I’m trying to remember that if I get bored I should move on, but I certainly don’t feel like I should already be in Gr 3 because I’m not good at anything. Just one example: power chords really tripped me up…not that they’re a hard concept, but I’m just terrible at them even after weeks and weeks. I don’t want to keep moving through modules, but I do feel pretty bored. I’ll dedicate a month to each module, until I get so curious about the next module that I can’t stop from moving on.
The conglomerate of prohibitive feelings is getting overwhelming. I basically have so many techniques to practice that I don’t know what to practice. I yearn for more examples of songs to target specific techniques but googling for them feels prohibitive bec I perceive that all my favorite songs are going to be in alternate tunings or something advanced. And I can’t read tab anyway. I can’t memorize songs for some reason. And after several weeks, I’ve had so much work and life to do that I’ll have forgotten what I thought I memorized. I’m growing unsatisfied with my chair and sitting position, so I think I need to reconsider that area of my set-up. I still feel like my hand is too small to fret properly, and that in particular is just really frustrating every time I practice. I sort of just don’t know what to do lately.
I realize Justin has everything laid out for me, step by step, but for some reason I still feel like I don’t know what to practice (that’s the overwhelming feeling taking over and making me think irrationally). I want to play so bad, but I just feel like I just can’t. And before someone quotes me, I know I just said like two days ago that practicing is playing. I mean I want to be able to play fundamental things with ease.
I might just go back and do a redo most of the previous modules.