tried to capture my current mood with a song called “Counting Losses (the minus and plus)”.
Lyrics:
Counting Losses (the minus and plus)
For too long I looked away, refused to weigh
Admit the loss, count the cost
Now I cannot pretend, down to the end
Right in front of me, apparently
The drain of the pain, the regret and the blame
Gets ya’ nowhere but we do it all the same
Now I look it in the eye, the mirror’s making me cry
What do you do, when you wanted more
By the end of the game, don’t like score
You take it on the chin, ‘cause you can’ t win
Your cheek is turned to the sting and the burn
Chorus
Now there’s weights and scales, ledgers and lines
Want them to disappear but the math is clear
The minus and plus adds up to us
Now it’s on my mind, was it a waste of time?
Don’t look it that way, how it had to be, can’t you see
You became what you are because of the scars
Through the black and the blue, that’s what made you
Chorus
For too long I looked away, refused to weigh
Now I admit the loss, count the cost
Adding up to us, the minus and plus, the minus and plus, adding up to us
All these weights and scales, ledgers and lines
All these weights and scales, ledgers and lines
Will not erase dear, the math is clear, the math is clear will not erase my dear
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