September 8th, 2023
How it’s been going: - WARNING long ramblings ahead:
I played guitar today for the first time in an entire month! I didn’t really contemplate why I haven’t played much until I spontaneously picked up my 6 string and played some of my favorites about an hour ago.
It started with a weekend vacation to Las Vegas at the end of July where I didn’t play because I just didn’t have my guitar with me to play. It’s funny because the trip ended by attending a rock concert on the last day that got me pumped to play, but when I got home I just didn’t. I even took a bunch of pictures of the lead guitarist just shredding on this beautiful white jazzmaster and gushed to my brother who was with me and doesn’t know a thing about playing about how much I want a guitar just like that now, lol.
When I got back, I also had medical stuff looming. I had corrective eye surgery scheduled, which I was worried about because the one I got was a bit more invasive than the common corrective surgery that most people get in the US. (ICL for anyone curious as I was not a candidate for Lasik) That came and went 2 weeks ago (no more glasses yay!). Still didn’t pick up the guitar again after I was healed up though.
In the back of my mind, I guess I thought I’ve just been busy with these other things and just haven’t had the time to play (plus video games, seriously starfield has taken over my life guys). When I picked up the guitar and played today though, I came to a realization: I stopped playing because I wasn’t having fun anymore. This really creeped up on me; a month of vague “I’ll get back on it soon” head canon and I never really stopped to think about it.
You see, I’ve been playing pretty much daily since I first picked up the guitar in Jan of 2022. I look back at the progress I’ve made in under 2 years and I’m truly proud. Seriously, if you would have shown me one of my recent AVOYP to me 2 years ago I’d have been awed for sure (I speak in relative terms of course, I’m not shredding by any stretch of the imagination). I was making so much progress in my playing that I got OBSSESSED with it though.
I was an IT project manager for years, so it’s my business to lay out a plan and execute it. Part of my excitement in playing is to create these plans, execute, and to track progress. I’ve been doing this since day one thanks to Justin’s practice tools and excellent books. I neglected the other half of the equation though: having fun actually playing!
As I played the random songs I’ve learned throughout the journey with no timer timing me, no set thing to practice, no expectations of what I’ll be playing next week, the time flew by. I checked my phone and I had played for 45 minutes! I felt good, and I felt like my playing was fine, though I didn’t really focus on that part until after I had already finished…
What I’ve been Playing:
a little bit of everything today =)
The Plan:
I’m taking a break. I don’t think I can ever quit playing the guitar, today proved that, but I’m taking a breather for a little longer. My wife is due to give birth to our second child in November, so I’ll think I’ll plan to pick it back up after the dust has settled there. That’s not to say I won’t pick it up like I did today and play the greatest hits, but I don’t think I’ll be focusing on progress until after.
I’m a creature of habit though; I’m sure when I do pick it back up, I’ll be right back to creating plans, executing, and tracking progress. It’s something I love doing, and don’t think I could stop that even if I tried. I will, however, try to nurture the other half and equally important part of the equation: having fun.