@Eddie_09 and @adi_mrok Many thanks to both of you 
You have no idea, how much this means to me. My first reaction was: What me?!? No way. Not me. The more I’m thinking about it however, the more I realize that there is a seed of truth in your words. Perhaps, if something is not working well for some time and things seem to be hard, all it takes is resilience, discipline and hard practice to overcome certain obstacles.
@Rmking60 You dare to video bomb my thread with videos recorded almost four years ago? 
Now I encourage you that you rerecord this song It would be interesting to find out what it sounds like now - I think I heard the occasional string snaring - and it surely will receive a lot more - well deserved - attention in an own thread.
When it comes to uploading videos here. I think it’s everyone’s own decision whether to upload videos to the community or not. Some people enjoy doing so. Others don’t - and that’s perfectly fine and I think something that has to be respected.
In my case, I had never wanted to upload a video again after @jkahn 's thread had made me think a lot. I was one of these people uploading videos without having practiced enough, simply since I love music so much and it was so easy getting carried away with too much enthusiasm.
Meanwhile I understood that it is and will be fun for me uploading videos that I’m happy with. Videos of songs that I spent hours and hours and hours (more than in this recent case) practicing, etc. But as I said, it’s everyone’s own decision and this should be respected. After all it’s mutual respect that is making this community so unique